sweet little bee

As I drive the long distance back from work,
I can't wait to hear that little giggle and see that sweet smiley face.
On most days, Auntie has you down for your afternoon nap,
so I get home and wait anxiously for you to wake up.
Once the baby monitor sounds, I rush into your room,
& fall in love all over again.
My sweet little bee, how I adore you.
I can't imagine anyway you could possibly be more perfect.

As I come closer to your swing, where you sleep most of the time these days,
I watch your excitement when you see my face smiling back at you.
Your sweet giggles make my day.
With your hands over your face, like you can't handle the excitement any longer,
I pick your chubby little body up and you rest your little head on my shoulder.
Unfortunately, this doesn't last long. How I wish for longer cuddles from you.
You are always on the move.

My favorite times are right after you wake up.
You are so happy, truly happy.
Happy like the world is good, and you wouldn't know anything different,
I want to keep it that way.
For as long as possible.

Thank you little bee for loving me.
For loving me unconditionally.
For not holding it against me for leaving you every day for work.
It's almost over. A month and a half, and we'll have more of our mornings together.
The mornings are the best- I long for those sweet hours back.

You are growing so fast. Everyone warned/warns me about just that,
but I wish it weren't so true.
I look at pictures of you when you were tiny-er. Little bee, you were so tiny.
Everyday though, I believe you get even cuter.
& I know you get even chubbier.
I want to bottle up the little happy little guy you are, and never forget.
Never forget your chubby cheeks.
Never forget your excited, silent claps.
Never forget your little sneezes.
Never forget your soft, pouty lips when you are asleep.
Never forget.

This month we will celebrate your first Halloween.
I'm so excited.
I know that future years you will enjoy holidays more,
but I love the kind of enjoyment you get out of things now.
The big curious eyed enjoyment.

Someday you will probably complain that there is a camera in your face too often.
That is why I am taking advantage of now.
I'm trying my best to soak up every moment, and make every memory.
But I know memories only last so long,
but pictures, videos, and journal entries help.

My little bee, thank you.