You are two years old today. I could easily write about how this time has went by so fast and how I can't believe you are a two whole years old already... But actually, two years feels just about right.
... I'm so thankful for that.
When you were handed to me on that memorable evening that I became a mom, my life changed. My life became a bit slower and a bit more important. Each day since the day you were born I'm reminded constantly of how time passes with or without me noticing. I never want to stop noticing time passing while I am a mom.
I am not about to say that each moment of motherhood is packed full of rainbows and butterflies, but I will say each moment is filled with lessons and memories. I am so thankful I get to have so many memories with you as a part of them.
Brody, you have changed my life for the better. Before becoming a mom there were so many things I was unsure of. Would I continue my education? Would I start a career? Would I live in the city? Would I start my own business? Would I speed on the highway? Would I cheat on a test? Many, many things were harder for me back then, until I became your mom. As you were placed in my arms that day, two years ago, the stars aligned for the first time in my life. Things became clearer when I became your mom.
Life immediately felt different that day. As I felt your soft skin and looked into your perfect little eyes, I realized that I was important. I thought I knew what importance was before, but that day I learned a whole new meaning of the word. The responsibility, patience, and integrity that comes within that word was clear to me at that moment.
From that day on, my life became about you. These past two years I've lived this new, wonderful, life of motherhood. A day hasn't passed that I haven't been able to kiss your sweet face or hug your cute little body.
I know that someday will come that this won't be possible. You'll move away from the comfort of our home and perhaps a call on the phone is the closest thing I'll have to a goodnight hug. I hope with all my heart that when that day comes, I can look back and know that I did my best to make each day count. I hope that I can say that time went by as fast as it should. I hope that I won't feel too sad that that chapter is over, but rather I hope I will feel comfort knowing I was blessed with the experience of motherhood.
Brody, you made me a mommy. And for that, I am so thankful. It's the most important role I could ever hold during this life. Learning how to raise you is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But at the same time, it's the most rewarding thing I've get been able to experience.
Today I was teaching you how to push, one at a time, the peddles on the new little red tricycle we got you for your Birthday. I would repeat push, push, push over and over to help remind you what we were doing in order for you to move down the sidewalk. Every so often I would let go of the front of your bike and you would be moving, all on your own, until you would forgot again and you would come to stop. Your cute little face,under your helmet, would look up at me wondering what we were supposed to do next. And we would start again.
I love being that person you look up to when you get unsure of something. As your mom, I want to be a person worth looking up to. As we travel down the sidewalk of life together, I promise to always be there to remind you and help you along the way.
I love you little bee. Happy Birthday! I have loved the past two years of my life and you are to thank for that.
Love,
Momma
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